2/16/15 Katie's Healthy Eating Journal: Saturday

by Katie (Jenny Craig 2009 Poster Girl) 12. February 2014 19:47

Sometimes I have flashbacks to the days when I battled bulemia.  They will just randomly pop in my head and a pang of saddness will come over me.  I felt so alone and angry with my body during college.  Years of being teased had piled up until I felt helpless.  Working out twice a day and months of diet pills were making me crazy.  My most frequent flashback is to living in the dorms.  It was just so easy to purge my food.  I would not eat all day and then for a "mid-day meal" I would eat an apple and a few pretzels dipped in Tostito's Cheese Dip.  What an odd meal, I don't know how I could've thought this was good for me.  My goal would be to not eat at all but I could never make it that long.  I would be so mad at myself for breaking down that I would quietly slip out of my dorm room (I lived with three other girls and my boyfriend was always over) and go into the bathroom which was huge.  I would conveniently wait until no one was in there and start throwing up.  The minute someone walked in I would stop, wait for them to leave, and continue again.  It became a total addiction.  Everything I ate I wanted to get rid of.  I kept thinking how easy it was to hide from everyone - being away at college.  Sometimes those feelings come back of wanting to get rid of whatever I may have "cheated' with and the only thing that stops me is a husband and parents that would be furious with me.  I love them so much I wouldn't want to hurt them.  The temptation is definitely there but I fight to brush it out of my thoughts.  I am so thankful for finding a healthy program that works and helps me "stay in control" of my body.  I'm not sure what would've become of me if JC hadn't worked.  I had felt so desperate and angry when everything I tried wasn't working and doctors were stumped as to how to help me.  I still wonder what is wrong with my metabolism but at least portion control coupled with low-fat, sugar, and sodium has worked for me. 

SATURDAY

Breakfast -

JC Blueberry Pancakes and Sausage with 1/4 cup sugar-free syrup

Banana

1 cup fat-free organic milk

Snack -

JC Vanilla Crisp Anytime Bar

Lunch -

JC Beef and Barley Stew

Cauliflower 

Snack -

Tangelo

Dinner -

JC Meatloaf and potatoes

Salad with peppers and mushrooms 2 tbsp light ranch

Snack -

JC S'mores bar

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